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Why am I like this? by Natalia Rachel
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Why am I like this?

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Length 11 hours 5 minutes
Language English
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‘Why am I like this?’ If you’ve asked this question to yourself quietly time and again… get ready to unpack and process like never before. Embark on a textured journey that will illuminate the hidden, unspoken and often unconscious experiences of the traumatized self. Chapter by chapter, you’ll make sense of your emotions, body, nervous system and relationships.Through concept, vulnerable story-telling and self-inquiry, author Natalia Rachel ignites a shift towards self-compassion and the dissolving of shame. Like the brilliant formations of a kaleidoscope, your awareness will continue to morph, crystalize and clarify until you make the utmost sense. Natalia’s life journey as a patient turned therapist opens an incredibly special doorway to trauma recovery, healing and post-traumatic growth.

Natalia Rachel has spent her life on a journey to answer the question 'Why am I like this?'. Her existential inquiry started at age seven with a knowing that there was something fundamentally wrong with her world. Living through and recovering from relational trauma, mental health misdiagnosis and physical illness, led her on a healing journey exploring mainstream health and mental healthcare, complimentary health, the healing arts, somatics & spirituality. Her studies span hypnotherapy, regression, trauma, craniosacral therapy and other somatic healing modalities.Natalia's ability to illuminate unseen, non-verbal experiences and dynamics often has her labeled as 'gifted' or a 'healer'. However, Natalia insists we all have these innate abilities and the way to reconnect to them is simply through our own healing which demands dedicated self-inquiry and embodiment practice.A 'peaceful activist', Natalia suggests that our own healing transforms our social footprint. She hopes that her words ignite a way of living and relating that demand accountability and invite grace. Natalia distills complex concepts into palatable and poetic words that capture the hearts of her audience. Her well-meaning heart is evident in everything she shares.Originally from Australia, Natalia lives in Singapore with her two young children and is the Founder of Illuma Health. The organization is committed to repairing and revitalizing the way we treat ourselves and each other and co-creating a trauma-informed world. Natalia continues to commit to her journey of embodiment through practices including somatic movement & martial arts, meditation and process work.

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