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Trouble

A memoir

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Narrator Marise Gaughan

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Length 9 hours 38 minutes
Language English
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Marise was nine when she first realised there was trouble, 14 when her Dad tried to end it all, and 23 when he finally succeeded.

In a turmoil of conflicting emotions Marise runs - from Dublin to Amsterdam to Los Angeles, leaving a trail of sex and self-destruction in her wake. Until finally, she finds herself facing what she's become in a California psych ward, a girl imploding through trying to make sense of her father's suicide.

As she retells her unravelling, from child to adult, Marise strips back her identity and her relationship with her father, layer by layer, until she starts to understand how to live with him, years after he has gone.

Written beautifully, with wit and unflinching honesty, Marise has produced one of the most profound coming-of-age memoirs of recent years, a stunning new voice in Irish writing.

(P) Octopus Publishing Group 2022

Marise Gaughan was born in Dublin in 1991, and began doing stand-up in the open mic nights of Los Angeles in 2016. Now living in London, she continues to perform in all the major UK and Irish clubs and festivals. Her award nominated debut show Drowning premiered at the Dublin Fringe festival in 2018 and was awarded the Women's Irish Network Arts Bursary. She presented a weekly radio segment on Ireland's lyric.fm during lockdown that The Irish Times called 'edgy, honest and funny.' This is her first book.

Marise Gaughan was born in Dublin in 1991, and began doing stand-up in the open mic nights of Los Angeles in 2016. Now living in London, she continues to perform in all the major UK and Irish clubs and festivals. Her award nominated debut show Drowning premiered at the Dublin Fringe festival in 2018 and was awarded the Women's Irish Network Arts Bursary. She presented a weekly radio segment on Ireland's lyric.fm during lockdown that The Irish Times called 'edgy, honest and funny.' This is her first book.

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Reviews

Raw, brutal and life-affirming - Marise has written a hugely important book that is as entertaining as it is illuminating. I couldn't put this down. A brave, honest, witty, new Irish voice that has a very bright future ahead of her. Holy cow. I finished it and cried my eyes out. An incredible, beautifully written memoir about humanity, heartbreak and hope. Gripping, funny and heart-wrenchingly relatable. Every time I turned the page I hoped it wouldn't be the last. Where so much writing about mental illness is riddled with po-faced earnestness and cliche, Marise Gaughan's take no prisoners approach to craziness, sex and Catholic girlhood is spit-your-tea-out funny.' Disarming in its candour, hilarious and harrowing in its depictions of a life shaped by trauma and addiction, Trouble is so much more than a memoir of survival. It is a picaresque journey through the stages of grief; an intimate epic of self-sabotage and self-forgiveness; a no-holds-barred report from the lip of the abyss. How glad I am that Gaughan stepped away in time. Her voice, at once wry, profane and heartfelt, is a gift. She observes with a mordant wit the ways we deceive ourselves in the name of our desires, and reminds us that we are not defined by our pasts, but by the small steps we take every day towards our ideal selves. An unflinching account of a young woman's alternating attempts to survive her father's suicide - or die from it. Marise Gaughan writes with heart-rending precision of the dynamics between fathers and daughters, as well as the still more troubling sexual one between older men and damaged young women. This is a knife-sharp and defiant story of recovery. Marise is a Brillo pad of a writer, spikey and essential. Gaughan's humour is dark, biting, and painfully honest, but it is in the moments when she is being gentler to herself that her words are at their most transcendent. Trouble is an outstanding memoir, a text on addiction that gets to the heart of its implicit trauma and complications. Gaughan has a remarkable voice, self-assured yet vulnerable, frank to a staggering degree - and likeable even in her darkest moments. Blistering...an outstanding memoir An outstanding text on addiction and girlhood, equal parts vulnerable and witty Addictive, exhilarating and raw Expand reviews
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