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Fi

A Memoir of My Son
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Narrator Alexandra Fuller

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Length 6 hours 25 minutes
Language English
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Summary

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The story of a mother grieving the sudden loss of her twenty-one-year-old child - from the award-winning and bestselling memoirist of Don't Let's Go to the Dogs Tonight


It’s midsummer in Wyoming and Alexandra Fuller is barely hanging on. Grieving her father and pining for her home country of Zimbabwe, reeling from a midlife breakup, freshly sober and piecing her way uncertainly through a volatile new relationship with a younger woman, Alexandra vows to get herself back on even keel.

And then – suddenly and incomprehensibly – her son Fi, at twenty-one years old, dies in his sleep.

From a sheep wagon deep in the mountains of Wyoming to a grief sanctuary in New Mexico to a silent meditation retreat in Alberta, Canada, Alexandra journeys up and down the spine of the Rocky Mountains in an attempt to find how to grieve herself whole. By turns disarming, devastating and unexpectedly, blessedly funny, Alexandra recounts the wild medicine of painstakingly grieving a child in a culture that has no instructions for it.


'Truly extraordinary' HELEN MACDONALD

‘A mesmeric celebration... Will help others surviving loss — surviving life' NEW YORK TIMES

©2024 Alexandra Fuller (P)2024 Penguin Audio

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Reviews

A devastating, profoundly moving and uplifting memoir – as told by a brave, wonderful mother who found herself ultimately able to withstand the most terrible of tests A truly extraordinary memoir about a mother’s loss of her son: beautiful, fearless, raw and an utterly compelling read An astonishing memoir. Written in a rush of grief, it is full of beauty and pain: sensual and corporeal, spiritual and philosophical, and utterly human. Anyone who knows grief will learn something new here. I will never forget this book Fuller is a sublime writer. In the hands of another memoirist, the story of Fi might be unbearably sad, but this book is a mesmeric celebration of a boy who died too soon, a mother’s love and her resilience. It will help others surviving loss - surviving life Incandescent, burning with both grief and life, a book so hot it melts the gold to mend the cracks of a smashed psyche in a brilliant act of literary kintsugi Expand reviews
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