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After the Worst Day Ever by Duane R. Bidwell
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After the Worst Day Ever

What Sick Kids Know About Sustaining Hope in Chronic Illness

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Length 6 hours 9 minutes
Language English
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For those who care for chronically ill children, a new understanding of hope that equips adults to better nurture pediatric hope among sick kids—articulated by the children themselves

As anyone with a chronic illness knows, hope can sometimes be hard to come by. For parents and caregivers of children with serious illness, there can be a real struggle to move beyond one's own grief, fear, and suffering to see what hope means for these kids.

Duane Bidwell, a scholar, minister, and former hospital chaplain who has struggled with serious illness himself, spent time with 48 chronically ill children in dialysis units and transplant clinics around the United States. Chronically ill kids, he found, don’t adhere to popular or scholarly understandings of hope. They experience hope as a sense of well-being in the present, not a promise of future improvement, an ability to set goals, or the absence of illness and suffering. With this mindset, these kids suggest a new understanding of pediatric hope, saying hope becomes concrete when they


  1. realize community,

  2. claim power,

  3. attend to Spirit,

  4. choose trust, and

  5. maintain identity.


Offering textured portraits of children with end-stage kidney disease, After the Worst Day Ever illustrates in their words how sick children experience, maintain, and turn toward hope even when illness cannot be cured and severely limits quality of life. Their insights reveal how the adults in a sick child’s world—parents, chaplains, medical professionals, teachers, and others—can nurture hope. They also shift our understanding of hope from an internal resource located “inside” an individual to a shared, communal experience that becomes a resource for individuals.

Rich and moving, Bidwell’s work helps us imagine anew what it means to sustain hope despite inescapable suffering and the limits of chronic illness.

Duane R. Bidwell, PhD, is an educational and research associate at the Henry M. Jackson Foundation and serves on the faculty of the Center for Health Professions Education, Hébert School of Medicine, Uniformed Service University of the Health Sciences in Bethesda, Maryland. He is a board member of the Taos Institute and the Society for Buddhist-Christian Studies. From 2010-2022, Duane was professor of practical theology, spiritual care, and counseling at Claremont School of Theology in Claremont, California, where he co-directed the Center for Sexuality, Gender, and Religion and served as accreditation liaison officer. He was also a senior staff clinician and supervisor at The Clinebell Institute for Pastoral Counseling and Psychotherapy.

His previous book, When One Religion Isn’t Enough: The Lives of Spiritually Fluid People (Beacon Press, 2018), was a Christian Century bestseller and a Library Journal “Best Book of 2018.” His work has been featured on NPR, CNN, the Canadian Broadcasting Corporation (CBC), Interfaith Radio, and many podcasts.

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Reviews

“Bidwell’s work is rich in the sort of insights you might expect from, say, a work on Buddhist spirituality, but his sacred texts are the clear-eyed observations of suffering children, relayed by an adult with the wisdom to listen deeply.”
Spirituality & Practice

“What a powerful, courageous, and honest book! Drawing on years of pastoral experience, scholarly wisdom, and meticulous research, Duane Bidwell takes us inside the lives of children, letting them speak for themselves about their trials and amazing resilience amid debilitating illness. A godsend for those who care for sick children, the book’s five hope-filled practices also speak to those of us needing hope in an increasingly precarious world.”
—Bonnie Miller-McLemore, author of Let the Children Come

“I cannot say this enough: I needed this book when I was a pediatric staff chaplain. Sitting with patients and their families after receiving a life-rupturing diagnosis is fraught with fears of what not to say. How are they feeling? Where is the divine in all this? Bidwell cajoles the reader to listen to the children: the experts in their lived experiences. Hope is not an isolated experience, they show us, but one practiced in community. May we all practice hope in a way that fosters creativity, centers experience, enhances resilience, and nurtures the authenticity that Bidwell’s patients offer.”
—Rev. Joshua T. Morris, Union Presbyterian Seminary

“Duane Bidwell goes past the fear of chronic disease and dis-ease that strikes across the life span. Listening to the wisdom of children and youth on their own terms brings high rewards, and the compelling stories and sound methodology in After the Worst Day Ever are a gift for those who live with chronic illness and those who care for them.”
—Daniel Grossoehme, senior research scientist, Akron Children’s Hospital

“The guiding experts in this book are children and adolescents experiencing end-stage renal disease. Duane Bidwell lifts their voices and—in accessible language—elicits their practices of resilience. By highlighting spiritual resources of coping, he enters a world not yet fully discovered in healthcare research. This book offers new insights not only for healthcare professionals but for everyone who seeks to sustain hope in the midst of challenge and adversity.“
—Rev. Dr. Dagmar Grefe, manager of Spiritual Care and Clinical Pastoral Education, Children’s Hospital Los Angeles Expand reviews
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