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“Annie Q.'s voice breathes life into the characters of this YA debut. Scarlett, the narrator, jumps between the events that happen over the course of high school and a cross-country road trip the summer after her freshman year of college. Her story unfolds only as quickly as she is willing to share it, leaving listeners hanging on every word to figure out what might happen next. With the non-linear story it would be easy for listeners to lose track of the narrative thread, but guided by Annie Q. and her use of inflection and tone to distinguish Scarlett at various points in time, the audience is never questioning where they are in the story or how all the pieces fall together.”
— Stephanie • Print: A Bookstore
A Seventeen Best Book of the Year
A New York Public Library Top Ten Best Book of the Year
A Kirkus Best Book of the Year
For fans of All the Bright Places, Looking for Alaska, and I'll Give You the Sun comes "a daring, inventive story about love and loss and longing, reminding us that every choice can be a new chance. A dazzling, not-to-be-missed debut." —Kathleen Glasgow, author of Girl in Pieces
In one impulsive moment the summer before they leave for college, overachievers Scarlett and David plunge into an irresistible swirl of romance, particle physics, and questionable decisions. Moving between the present and the past, this is the story of a grounded girl who's pulled into a lightning-strike romance with an electric-charged boy, and the enormity of the aftermath.
Scarlett and David have known each other all their lives in small-town Colorado, where David is just another mountain in the background, until, one day, he is suddenly so much more than part of the scenery. David is magnetic, spontaneous, a gravitational force. And Scarlett, pragmatic, wry, eye on the future, welcomes the pull he has on her even as she resists it. Drawn to his wild energy, to the relief she feels in throwing off the weight of everyone’s expectations, Scarlett still can’t ignore the tug of her own hopes and ambitions, while David struggles between his feelings for her, which might be deeper than either of them will admit, and his own destructive impulses.
Heartbreaking, hopeful, and unflinchingly honest, this is a deeply moving account of a girl dealing with grief and guilt, and learning to reconcile who she thinks she needs to be with the person she’s been all along. It’s an aching, transporting reminder that between the past that shapes us and the future ahead, we have only the present to forgive ourselves and forge ahead.
"Deeply authentic . . . Marvelously complex . . . Readers shouldn't miss [it]" —Kirkus (starred review)
"Mystery . . . Heartbreak . . . Hope . . . Readers will not be able to put this one down." —SLJ
"Vivid" —Seventeen.com
"You'll speed read through [it]" —PopSugar
"John Green-like, intelligent and peppered with witty repartee" —Booklist
"A story you won't forget." —Huntley Fitzpatrick, author of My Life Next Door
"Heartbreaking, exquisitely crafted" —Estelle Laure, author of This Raging Light
"A complex, compassionately written love story" —PW
"A definite purchase and must read." —VOYA
Shana Youngdahl is a poet and author who teaches writing at the University of Maine at Farmington and directs the Longfellow Young Writers' Workshop. One of her greatest joys is helping people embrace the stories they need to tell. Shana lives with her husband, two daughters, and two cats in Maine. As Many Nows as I Can Get is her debut novel.
Reviews
“A daring, inventive story about love and loss and longing, reminding us that every choice can be a new chance. A dazzling, not-to-be-missed debut." —Kathleen Glasgow, author of Girl in Pieces"You'll speed read through [it]." —PopSugar
“Plot twists and surprising emotional connections . . . John Green–like, intelligent and peppered with witty repartee. Recommended.” —Booklist
“Real relationships, timeless loss, and a story you won’t forget.” —Huntley Fitzpatrick, author of My Life Next Door
"Vivid." —Seventeen.com
★ "Grief, addiction, first loves, and traveling an unplanned road are among the many themes explored in this debut novel. . . . Heartfelt yet often sardonic . . . deeply authentic [and] marvelously complex. [A] smart, poignant story [that] readers shouldn't miss." —Kirkus (starred review)
"Mystery . . . Heartbreak . . . Hope . . . Readers will not be able to put this one down." —SLJ
“A complex, compassionately written love story.” —Publishers Weekly
“Time is relative in this unique blend of romance and drama. . . . A definite purchase and must read.” —VOYA
“This heartbreaking, exquisitely crafted story captures the moments of intersection between choice and regret, the circular nature of grief, and everything that is nuanced about being a person.” —Estelle Laure, author of This Raging Light
"YA literature, some say, is about the moments when one state of being changes to another. In its structure and its story, As Many Nows as I Can Get is a perfect example of this sometimes bumpy, sometimes poignant transition." —BookPage Expand reviews
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